Can you repeat that?

Communication: a process whereby meaning is defined and shared between living organisms.


Today driving to my job as a waiter in training I witnessed a 20 something year old man yelling out of his plumbing truck at some senior citizen driving a beat up cadillac with one of those old 70's license plates. The plumber screaming at the top of his lungs cried, "what the fuck do you think your doing, get your fucking eyes checked you old timer. You stay the fuck out of my way and shut your fucking mouth". Throughout this rant the senior was gesturing simple sorry's and apologetics. Honestly...I wish the old guy pulled out a magnum and capped that asshole right there in the middle of Palomar Airport Road. Thats what Clint Eastwood would have done! This got me thinking of the way we communicate as adults and I found myself utterly disturbed. I spent the next part of my day communicating orders from one table to the next. I realized how people were either talking to me with mutual respect or they were talking down to me. No one was considered rude or tempered but still my gears were cranking. I notice a teenage girl out to lunch with her mother. She sat on her iphone 4g the whole time barely even taking the time to answer the mom's basic questions. She was so involved with texts or maybe facebook that she didn't even give her mother an ounce of respect. It was then and there that I decided that if a girl ever pulled out her phone during a date, other then to check to see if her parent were calling her, she would be kicked to the curb. Im currently single once again and now that I'm writing this I blame our relationships failure on COMMUNICATION! It was because of the way we spoke to one another and treated each other with insignificant amounts of respect that our downfall was pronounced. I spoke with the girl in subject last night. She communicated her want to change the way she verbalizes with me and attempted to explain the ways she would work on her communication skills. Do I believe that she will change, not one bit but my heart has communicated to me to keep hope strong. I had the privilege of spending yesterday, my day off, with 3 old friends. One of them was Mr. Dylan Johnson a master of communication skills. He is so well with my parents and the people around that he could charm anyone from a McDonald's cook to a corporate sales man. He might not even like my parents, but the way he communicates with them allows them to have an undying love for him. Another person I spent multiple hours with was my haircutter Andii. She is from Minnesota and lives with her husband Kyle in 29 palms. Kyles in the military and they dont see each other for vast amounts of time but the reason I believe their relationship is so strong is because they communicate on a totally real level. Therefore she was able to pick my brain o the way I was communicating to some certain females that I was having disputes with. Its all just one big whirlwind to me. Thinking about the way we have lost our thrive to love one another. To want the best for each other. Shelby Irwin said to me that the reason we are no longer friends is because I comunicate I love for myself and my own obsessions but a lack of love for the others around me. Do I think she's right? Partly, because for me to attempt to love others more then me I has lead to me losing my best friend and relationships that I held so dear to at one point. But I do indeed think there are a people in my life that I have failed utterly failed! At being a good friend to and following the path that I have chosen. It is disgusting that I have been so frivle with my relationships and have portrayed this lack of understanding. Now dont get me wrong I do have the people who I love with the most unconditional love but does this attribute to the fact that others feel that I have abused their emotions. Well God help me make everyone happy in this world and try not to go to sleep to wasted. Thanks for reading.